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Lauren is sitting on the sofa of Josh's office. In her hand is Josh's laptop. She scrolls through the PFD files on Preview, taking notes as she reads. She is nervous, she doesn't know what to say to Josh, she hopes that Josh would lead the conversation.

Silence was hovering the whole room. Minimal arm movements make the sounds of giants. Both of them are quiet, as if they have never crossed path.

"Can you help me with this part right here?" Lauren murmurs, not even dare to make eye contact with Josh. He moves over, starts explaining the logic behind sugar molecules and their ability to form linkages. Lauren tried to focus on what Josh is saying. But she hasn't heard his voice in a long time, hasn't been in the same room with him for a long time, and hasn't talked about things in a non-personal matter with him in a even longer time.

The stranger-like atmosphere is something Lauren is not used to. Just about two month ago, they were close like anyone could ever be. The things that happened afterwards was something so catastrophic that Lauren purposefully blocked it out of her memory. Yet the scars still remain, in fact, it has not yet completely healed. Streams of memories resurface every now and then, like nightmares, but real.

Lauren returns the laptop back to Josh. "Thank you." Lauren starts walking towards the door. Josh caught up tightly behind. It is still silence, the same silence she faced two month ago. This seems so familiar. Lauren tries to think of something to say to break the silence. But nothing is coming up to her mind. 

They walk on until departing separate ways. 

"I'm gonna go." Josh turns around and starts walking.

It hurts, just like last time. Her tears are about to run down, throat starts to hurt. Her mind quickly seeks for other things that would occupy her thoughts; she looked down on her phone contacts for other people that would make her nights better. She reached out to her door with lighting speed and jumped under the sheet cover of her bed.

I am going to be very busy tomorrow at work, I better be prepared for it. What's good on TV? Eric...where is Eric? She looks down on her cell phone contacts, and dials Eric's number.